Disrupted

I do have my own plans by age 30. Being ambitious is suppose will guide me to the right path where my success is destined to be. At this age I should occupied my times with things that i have passion for…

I do love camera. In fact I just bought my own SLR. But what happen to that thing is… it remaining just a display at the corner of my room.

I have CS3 installer right beside my laptop. it has been a year since I didn’t take any effort to install it. It is not because I’m busy or something, it is just that I have being ignorant.

I used to addicted to the gym. Every single free time i will spend my time in the gym. I rather do my own thing in the gym than spending time watching movies. I used to treat that place as my escape place..A place where do I can get rid all of my stress and anger.

I used to be a big fan of all the interior design mags. I can consider that, by reading this for hours, it will be such a tonic that makes my smile..to whom who ever sees my room, they will totally said that either I’m lying here or I have forgotten my damn interest. I need to do something here…

Deep inside of me, I have a clear vision that i will pursue my study for master programme. And i would like to have as reality, so it would not forever stays as my dreams. I have postponed it for couple of times, because of my fear. At this right moment, I’m positive that i wont redeem my self esteem as long i didn’t pursue my dreams.

For this past year, I’m always thinking there is something wrong with me inside. For once, I have a thought that new surroundings that I just discover is much much more better compared to all my interest and can get rid all of my past. I’m wrong. I’m totally wrong here. It might makes me have another option in my life… but would it get any better?

Things should be changed… those enjoyment that i’m experiencing now wont do any better for me… forgotten things that i have a passion for is such a big mistake..I’m regretting

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~ by dozenford on July 12, 2009.